Watch Your Thoughts......

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your Destiny.

I have no idea who said that, but it is one of my favorite quotes. It goes with one of my sponsors favorite sayings, "What you think about, what you speak about, you bring about."

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful.......
- for a new sponsee, who continues to show me how far I've come, and how much hope there is for her recovery
- for my sponsor and all the wonderful sober women who scooped me up when I got here, and raised me well, for I was still a child
- for daily reminders that my HP is in control and doing a GREAT job!
- for over 2000 meetings a week in my area! I've never got a reason to NOT make a meeting!

Didn't I just learn a lesson in Comment Moderation?

That was odd. I don't check my blog for a few days and I get 80 comments from one person. Full of 1/2 truths, hatred and posting on my blog about their personal beliefs, their ego (I, P-Brain, am savior and god and blah blah to all people), and other people's blogs. Take your hatred elsewhere. You are not welcome here.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful AAnd thAAnkful............
- that I have love in my heart, not hatred, for anyone on earth
- that I don't feel the need to persecute other people for their beliefs
- that I have peace in my heart
- that I can hit the delete button, turn on comment moderation and not be bothered again
- for AA, my sponsor, my Higher Power, meetings and all the things I find so precious about the 12 Step program that saved my life and so many others

Tuesday

Great noon meeting today on fear,
after a 10 AM phone call to my sponsor on fear.
Page 84 of the Big Book tells me what to do with fear.

1. Ask God to remove it at once.
2. Talk to another about it.
3. Make amends if necessary.
4. Resolutely turn my thoughts to some one else.

I.DO.NOT.WANT.TO.TALK.ABOUT.IT.

I'm superstitious. If I say that horrible thing I fear out loud, it might come true. Right????????

Wrong.

Intellectually, I KNOW saying what I'm afriad of doesn't make it happen. In my heart, I don't want to even consider the 'Worst' possible thing as being a possibility. It can't happen. It can't happen. Not again. I've been here before. Circumstances have changed SO much from the last time it happened. I'm different. I'm better. I've grown. I can compete and defend myself when necessary. 8 years of recovery in AA have made me a completely different person. Last time the pain was unbearable. Some days it still hurts. It can't happen again.

I have an assignment from my sponsor. Write about it. Every day, write something about the feelings, not the little, nit-pick actions, but the feelings. Talk about the feelings inside me, not the events of the world outside me. Talk about the feelings in meetings, with my BFF.... we have an appointment to work through it next Wednesday, if I don't blow up between now and then....

oh wait! : ) Feelings can't kill me! : ) ha ha! There is hope! Some days it just feels like they can..... ha ha ha

i AAm so grAAteful to be
- alive
- sober
- healthy
- smiling
- full of good food
- out of the summer heat
- not a victim today

When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go…1 of 2 things will happen, either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly!

God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close.

I was sent those two quotes via email from a sober friend yesterday. What a beautiful reminder! How timely! When God speaks to me through you sober men & women its easiest for me to listen.

todAAy i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful........
- for the new show The Cleaner on A&E. Its almost hard to watch sometimes..... its so REAL. One kid last night on the show quoted the big book..... he could not imagine a life with or without alcohol forever....... remember that jumping off place? I do. It gave me chills......
- for my sponsor and all the other wonderful women who support me in recovery
- for hired help, doctors, lawyers, specialists of all kinds who handle the work I couldn't dream of doing
- for a full tank of gas, a fridge full of food, and more people to love and be loved by than I could ever imagine

Life is good............

bAAck AAt blogging AAgAAin

todAAy, i AAm grAAteful & thAAnkful..........

- that the footwork depends on me - write the budget, balance the checkbook, pay the bills, make the phone calls, suit up & show up
- that the results belong to GOD
- that I can take a joke as a joke and not some serious 'issue' we'll need to discuss later
- that I can take the insanity out of my head and put it on paper and I don't have to think about it again
- that there are so many sober bloggers still blogging and I can return to the group any time I want
- that I have 3 years, 7 months and 16 days of continuous sobriety..... and I still can't spell without spellcheck
- that I get to face the challenge of remembering how to blog, post, link to sober friends, add pictures, write a little in hmtl..... thAAnk God its progress not perfection.....
- for the Big Book and meetings and all you sober people out there